I went on a walk today. I walked to the local mall where I purchase my meals for the week, if I wanted to I could by clothing, jewelry, and well anything I really need. It is interesting to have a picture of a place that you will be visiting or even staying. I envisioned dirt roads, black people, and open air markets. What I see on a daily bases looks like the house that my grandparents stay at in the winter (Arizona) mines the large metal fencing with razor wire decorating the top. I watch the over sized men and model like woman make there way through the consumerism covered mall. I walk out side of the mall to find pubs, dance clubs, and restaurants. This is always full of students, at noon I will at least see 40 people drinking or drunk. Will this life style change when school starts? Will some of these strangers be my friends? In a way I hate it here. I wanted something that was not America. I wanted to experience something out of the ordinary. I wanted it to be like West Africa. But now that I am here and in the moment I think to my self and realize that West Africa is not the place for me to be, South Africa is. It fits my life style; I have what I need at my finger tips but can see the exotic life with in an hours drive.
I am here with a lot of Dutch students, and they never let me forget that I am an American. I fell that we as Americans are fucked (excuse my language, sorry mom). I am told not to speak when we talk to the police, when we go out, when we do anything. What is wrong with this picture? The first time I traveled outside of the states everyone loved me because I was an American. In only 7 years the reputation that the states had at one time is gone. I am a danger to the Dutch based off of where I am from, what my passport says, not off of what my personality is like or my beliefs on life. I wish that I was not from the states; I wish and hope for a brighter future for the citizens of the states.
I hope to be traveling to Durban for the weekend. This will be our celebration of school starting on Monday.
I am here with a lot of Dutch students, and they never let me forget that I am an American. I fell that we as Americans are fucked (excuse my language, sorry mom). I am told not to speak when we talk to the police, when we go out, when we do anything. What is wrong with this picture? The first time I traveled outside of the states everyone loved me because I was an American. In only 7 years the reputation that the states had at one time is gone. I am a danger to the Dutch based off of where I am from, what my passport says, not off of what my personality is like or my beliefs on life. I wish that I was not from the states; I wish and hope for a brighter future for the citizens of the states.
I hope to be traveling to Durban for the weekend. This will be our celebration of school starting on Monday.